Hi. I'm not sure who will be reading this other than me. If nothing comes out of this other than a new positive life, I AM OK WITH THAT. It's what I want. But in case, some background. I'm 33 years old from New Hampshire. I need a new job, a new place to live (by November), and more money (who doesn't, right?) I need to run more, too. I NEED TO STICK TO MY GOALS.
Sorry.. I really do want to stick to a topic, make complete sentences, etc. but no promises. ;) Now that I am getting older I feel like I understand why I am the way I am and kind of what to do to better myself. I have always cared what people think: MUST STOP. I hate confrontation, I like being alone, I love learning but I don't believe in myself. I think I'm pretty.. at times, I am insecure AF. I want to bust out of his rut but I must admit my comfort zone is cozy. I want to have a job I love that pays the bills and lets me live, but I have a hard time finding it and believing I can do it, that I even have a chance.
Being active (to an extent) has always been easy for me. I used to walk 7 miles with my family as a kid and teen, and in my 20s I got into running. I think I would maybe have been a good athlete, but that ship might have sailed, hehe. If I stick with a workout regimen I am hoping I can become confident in other areas of my life and also STICK WITH COMMITMENT. Am I lazy or incapable of believing in myself? I want to believe the latter but... ugh. I'd be extremely proud of myself.
Here is to day one. If this is a journal for myself I want to stick with this. I think it will be beneficial in so many ways :)
Good luck. Let's be positive,
Kaitlin
Sorry.. I really do want to stick to a topic, make complete sentences, etc. but no promises. ;) Now that I am getting older I feel like I understand why I am the way I am and kind of what to do to better myself. I have always cared what people think: MUST STOP. I hate confrontation, I like being alone, I love learning but I don't believe in myself. I think I'm pretty.. at times, I am insecure AF. I want to bust out of his rut but I must admit my comfort zone is cozy. I want to have a job I love that pays the bills and lets me live, but I have a hard time finding it and believing I can do it, that I even have a chance.
Being active (to an extent) has always been easy for me. I used to walk 7 miles with my family as a kid and teen, and in my 20s I got into running. I think I would maybe have been a good athlete, but that ship might have sailed, hehe. If I stick with a workout regimen I am hoping I can become confident in other areas of my life and also STICK WITH COMMITMENT. Am I lazy or incapable of believing in myself? I want to believe the latter but... ugh. I'd be extremely proud of myself.
Here is to day one. If this is a journal for myself I want to stick with this. I think it will be beneficial in so many ways :)
Good luck. Let's be positive,
Kaitlin
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